Wednesday 

Why am I now questioning what God made so clearly to me the other day? Is it the enemy? Is it that I don’t think it is possible? Is it that I don’t want to do it? I know the enemy will try to stop me from doing what God wants me to but I also know God is bigger and His plan will prevail. I know that I can not do this on my own and don’t know where to start but I also believe with God nothing is impossible! I know I want to be obedient to His will. So why exactly am I questioning things? I do not know. Much prayer is needed.  

Marco continues to get better and is sleeping most of the night now. Things are going smoothly and I firmly believe it is because all of you are praying for me. Please keep it up! Thank you so very much for all of your encouragement and prayers. Feel free to email me cpokrop@gmail.com I would love to hear from you. 

Monday

  I woke up to the rain several times last night. When it rains in Honduras it pours. It didn’t register with me to get up and check anything. When morning came and I went down to make the coffee, I realized the storage room I organized for Lisa was flooded. The boxes were wet. After getting Marco dressed and fed, I begin the task of taking things out of boxes so they don’t mildew and finding new boxes for them.I mop up the water with towels. I realize also that Morro had towels under the door in the upstairs as water was coming in there also.

Then the power went out and was out until about 4:00.  The wind blew as it continued to rain and the spring on the door broke off when the door got caught in the wind. After lunch I realized there was more water on the floor of the room I just finished cleaning up! The water was coming in under the window sil. I help clean that up and quickly realize it is also coming in under the bookcase in the kitchen! In the tropics you need to calk the windows every year. I notified Lisa and she said she had the windows done but they must have done a bad job at it! Luckily tile floor cleans up pretty easily.

   Marco continues to get better. I gave him a bath, which he enjoys and when the power comes back on do a load of towels. Today I stopped all neublizer treatments and prednisone. He is no longer wheezing. He is still on antibiotics, iron, zinc, and vitamins, His mom called to see when she can take him but Lisa said the doctor wants to build up His immunity and she should keep him at least 6 months. The mother who gives him no attention and no food probably will not allow him to stay and he will get sick again. Today he learned to say more in English and give me kisses.  

This evening I played uno with Melvin. It was fun. He didn’t go to school today because it was raining too hard and he would need to ride his bike. it is still raining but not as hard. I will get up at 5:15 to be sure Melvin is up for school.

Sunday

  I didn’t sleep well last night..the wind was blowing the doors, dogs were barking and for the first time I felt a little scared. I got up and checked things which seemed to be in order but somehow lay away most of the night.  

After fixing breakfast and doing laundry I sat down to read the voice of God bible study I am doing. As many of my friends know I have been actively seeking God’s will in Honduras for over a year as to what exactly He wants me to do. I have several opportunities to chose from. One was ruled out before I came on this trip. The exciting news is He is slowly revealing His will to me. The issue is I don’t see how I can possibly do it! I have no clue where to start, will need lots of long term help and lots of financial support. BUT THIS IS GOD! All things are possible with God! Please pray with me about all of this and as I continue to pray for HIS will and desire, I will reveal exactly what he has in mind for me to do. 

Saturday

things today were pretty much the same as yesterday. Marco seems to be getting a little better. After breakfast which I scrambled eggs, beans, and plaintains, I try to entertain Marco until nap time. Lunch is usually a tuna sandwich for me and a tortilla with beans or whatever is left over for Marco. They enjoy eating the same thing every day..rice, beans, meat and tortillas. 

 For dinner the boys ate out at a local restaurant take out style..I had cornflakes and Marco had leftover chicken and beans with rice.  

Friday

First day solo! Things went well. It was warm enough out so I took Marco out into his new little pool yesterday. He loved it. We went for a walk, played bubbles, played ball, did laundry, gave medicine, gave breathing treatments, paid the workers and made dinner. It was an exagusting day for me and I was sure Marco would be tired but he he was not! Finally around 8:30he fell asleep. I am grateful he slept all night! When he woke up I made him oatmeal I brought with me and he loved it! 

  My main focus here is taking care of this sick baby, who praise the Lord, seems to be getting better. I am not writing much about the other children as they are pretty self sufficient. I do need to know where they are and what they are doing and make sure they do their chores but they are good kids and there isn’t much to say about teenagers. They played cards together yesterday afternoon and Morro likes to play soccer every afternoon from 3-6. Melvin plays the pan flute and although I have not seen him play it I hear it from his bedroom.  

Marco playing with a toy I brought with me in the new outfit I also brought for him.

Thursday 

Marco was up several times last night and between Lisa leaving at 4 am,me setting my alarm for the wrong time..twice due to the time change, I didn’t sleep hardly at all. I need to get up at 5:15 to wake Melvin in time to go to school. Lisa usually drives him but since I don’t drive here, he will ride his bike. He is in 4 th grade but 21 years old. He acts and looks likes he is 14.

 I have somehow developed thrush in my mouth last night and with no car or anyone here, a little online home remedy tells me tea tree oil may help. I brought some with me so will try it. Cider vinegar, baking soda, and a few other remedies were also suggested but I do not have any of them. As I give my day over to the Lord.Won’t you remember to pray for me also. He has taken me out of my comfort zone but I am being blessed every minute of every day by being obedient to His will. 

A tired and sick Marco doing his breathing treatment.

Marco playing with the few toys he has. 

Wednesday 

Lisa delayed her trip by 2 days to get everything done. I’ve been watching Marco full time so she could concentrate on doing all she needs to. Marco is a full time job but any of you that have toddlers know this. It takes some getting use to when you are older and no longer in baby mode and on the go every second. 

I have been up since 4:30 this morning when Marco woke up. I was able to get him back to sleep for a short time however, I couldn’t go to sleep so it was the perfect time to do my devotions.  

Lisa will leave very early tomorrow morning and I will be on my own, confident that God will provide all I need for strength, energy,wise decisions, sleep, and anything else. Please remember to pray extra for me these next two weeks.

Tuesday..  

   Marco slept well last night but I didn’t. When he awoke, I gave him breakfast and then his medicines along with a breathing treatment. He quietly played with the few toys he has. Soon it was time for lunch which was chicken and rice then another breathing treatment and a nap. He seemed very congested and tired today. I woke him up from his 3 hour nap, afraid he wouldn’t sleep tonight. We go outside for a swing in the hammock which he enjoyed. Then we come in and count the geckos running on the ceiling! He likes to watch them run. Soon it was time for dinner. He ate then another breathing treatment. I hope he sleeps well tonight.  

Tuesday..  

   Marco slept well last night but I didn’t. When he awoke, I gave him breakfast and then his medicines along with a breathing treatment. He quietly played with the few toys he has. Soon it was time for lunch which was chicken and rice then another breathing treatment and a nap. He seemed very congested and tired today. I woke him up from his 3 hour nap, afraid he wouldn’t sleep tonight. We go outside for a swing in the hammock which he enjoyed. Then we come in and count the geckos running on the ceiling! He likes to watch them run. Soon it was time for dinner. He ate then another breathing treatment. I hope he sleeps well tonight.